I AM NOT PERFECT AND NEVER WILL

2009-05-31T23:47:00.003+08:00

okok..

my second post of the day..
i don noe y but today is so boring..
no sms, no phone call..

shes onli gone for 2 days n 1 nite trip im already bored..
imagine it for 3 mth in ns la..
shoots..

talking bout ns..
its like 2 weeks la..
9 more days!!!!

ok so before she left for malacca on fri she went to school as usual for lesson..
whichafeter she met up with me at my house..
wads shocking??
she has with her 2 adidas bag n a bag with bear..
wad bear??
my nyp grad bear...
awwww...
sweeeeeetttttt.....

she even lied to me dat dae la..
haiz..
again another white lie..
she has too many white lies that im afraid it might turn to real lie..
coz u never noe..
if a person hoo alwaes lies too many time no matter how small it is will definitely will start to have the mindset dat it is ok to lie so he/she will continue lie-ing..
sikit sikit lama lama jadi bukit ma.. something like that la..
although its not toking bout lies but it is something like that la..
lols
ok i dono wad im toking..
but to juz be straight forward 'don lie'!!
u can lie but not too much coz u are playing with ppl's trust..
and trust is something difficult to gain after losing them..
so pls bear it in mind..

The bear she bought..

sweet right..

don jealous ya'll

yohooo..

2009-05-31T17:36:00.009+08:00

ok peeps..
first of all sorry for abandoning this crap shit here..

its been uber long since my last post in here..
i guess time really flies without us knowing..
fyi,

I GRADUATED from nyp!!!!!!

so NS/SIM/SMU/MDIS here i come!!

well dat day marks the end of another phase of my journey..
and marks the halfway through journey of my goals in life..

bascially that day everyone was like superstar la..
snap here snap there..
shout out to all hoo has fotos of mine..
pls don display any unglam foto of yours truly la sey..

oh and the stupid robe is damn thick la eh..
like in sauna..
i tink if i were to wear that for whole day how much do u tink i can lose in weight??
i tink for whole day will lose about 5 to 10 kg la..
dats how hot it was..

dats all..
lazy to blog la..
i just put photo of my grad day k..
enjoyings you all...

before the ceremony

the ceremony

after ceremony

the fyp hangouts

classmates/lecture mate/course mate(sounds wrong)lols

last few mins

and of coz the foto of the day!!

my life would suck without you!!

2009-04-14T18:23:00.005+08:00

hohoho..
its been centuries since i bother to update..
well lets see wer to begin..

i noe..
for those wondering wads my result..
i failed!!
failed to meet my expectations..
did i set my target too high??
haiz..
wel lets be optimistic ya..
at least i passed EVERYTHING!!
with 1 A 4 Bs 1 C..
stupid C...

but at the very least i am satisfied to be able to graduate and graduate with an A and a thousands of Bs millions of Cs and couple of Ds..
yohooo..

next is loking forward for enlisment wich fyi i already noe wen..
its so fast la..

ever since end of exams i have been rotting and decomposing at home ad becomin a big fat pest.. literally fat fyi..
lols..
jog jog jog jog jog..
dats all i need..

been spending the whole couple of months wif girlfrend ya'll..
how sweet right.
hence title..
my life would suck without u!!!
coz i will be damn bored..
niwaes been taking fotos with our new same phone samsung f480..

but lazy to upload it for now coz i want to watch my show "heroes" at internet..
so adios amigos..
will put the fotos next tym.

wtf??

2009-03-17T23:01:00.002+08:00

god damn it man!!!
everyone is happy getting results and graduating while im still stuck with my results..
stupid giro la..
not enuff money to cut off to pay my school fee..
now im living in misery while others are enjoying their results..
DAMN IT!!!

I WANT MY RESULTS!!!
I NEED MY RESULTS!!!
GIVE ME MY RESULTS!!

niwae im prepared for the worst..
wadever happens happened and it happen for a reason..
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niwae update in my life..
been so busy going down to peicai to train competition teams..
although i noe wad the results will be but i still will not give up on them coz they didnt giv up on themself(hopefully)..

i dono y but it seems dat i have been tinking so much diz few daes..
i need to decide before its too late..
i sill have questions that yet to be answered..
i stil have answers dat is still in the process of searching..
i guess i noe hw sharon feels nw..
am i wasting tym or am i doing the correct thing..
hopefuli the answers will reveal soon coz i cant stand this feeing of lost im feelig nw..
if onli answers could be found in dictionary den it will be easier..

graduated

2009-02-27T23:24:00.003+08:00

hey y'all

have been spending my tym at home recently..
well dats wad graduates do..
i tink..
ahaks..

at least from my point of view la..
look ard me..
all slacking and waiting for jobs to come crawling towards them..
ape nak jadi...

i HATE being a graduate la..
need to get my freaking butt out to look for job..
if onli money can fall dow from the sky ALL day..

saw this video at ellen show..
i can really relate this song..
beyonce singing flaws and all..

spore idol??

2009-02-16T01:39:00.007+08:00

well well..

yesterdae celebrated vdae so todae i celebrated friendship day with my 2 bestest fren..

my big sis(biological fyi) and farhanna oh farhanna~..

went karaoke-ing...

more like screaming/distressing..

lols..

lucky never rain..

so after dat went to play pool and slack

after alot of puffs we went home..

ahaks..

and they live happily ever after slping in their rm rite nw..

lols..

a foto of farhanna singing..

and a video too..

this ball causes the effect of the light..

feeling disco sia..

kakak kiter ngah feeling

warning!! sweetness alert!!

2009-02-16T00:36:00.015+08:00

PRESENTS!!

Singapore botanical garden

this chips are ALL eaten by her!!

On the way for dinner

ps: i am not acting cute (altho i don need to.. ahaks)
i was copyrighting this japanese gal that was camwhoring with her fren..
it was super ACT CUTE for her can!!
goodness..

The menu says it all

hers*
mine was gobbled up before we remembered to snap snap

ours* top(calamari rings) bottom(cheese fries)

hidden cam..
BEAUTY ALERT!! BEAUTY ALERT!!

On the way to my house

at last a proper shot from me after lots of pinching frm her..
lols..

yoo hoo... anybody der??
hahass..
ok peeps
first of all happy valentine's dae
and happy friendship day..
above are wad i did for v-dae!!

cut long story short.. i spent the WHOLE day wif her and onli her..
yeah!! 3 cheers n 3 cheers for us!! lols..

after lots of takes finally got one..
the best of all the fotos..
fotos and models of the year..
NO!!
Centuries..
lols..

my days are like

a missing puzzle piece without u

and u gt the last piece of puzle to complete me..

time

2009-02-08T00:51:00.003+08:00

just went back from a damn boring banquet..
a celebration of 30 yrs of service..
mayb its boring coz i was spending it "alone"..
altho there was mdm yusma n the 2 juniors but sumhw i still feel bored and alone..
and i wonder y?? *sarcasm

btw knock on the door of reality..
exams are like starting on mon..
means i got no tym to spend time with someone..
and i hope to realli spend valuable tym todae/ tmr..
but it seems both days are not able to do it..

u noe wad..
SOMETIMEs i don need a shoulder to lean on or a listening ear to listen to my sorrows n complaint..
wad i need is jus being able to spend time with...
hope u understand..

diz had alreadi answer ur qn dat u pester..

SMILE!!

2009-02-05T22:06:00.010+08:00

OMFG!!
exams started TODAY!!!
dats fast or wad..

si liao la..
havent started studying..

niwae todae papers wasnt that bad as i tot it might be..
hope can get a C..
pls~~~....

k..
enuff of exams..
reality check for a moment..

if u tink im unreasonable,
look in the mirror..
if u tink im sensitive

den blame urself for being insensitive..

i am nt perfect u noe..

and never will..

bt wadever..
wad i learn from a fren (actualli a fren's shirt logo la)
"don't cry because its over, smile because it happened"
so for now i am just gonna smile despite everything..
although its jus a facade im putting on..

wer are u wen i need u the most?

slow down please

2009-01-28T23:45:00.003+08:00

WOW...

time really flies..
in fact its too fast..
in 2 weeks tym my FINAL paper starting and dats the end of my poly life..
insya allah..

am i ready for real world??
the answer is NOT!!!

i am so used to cracking my brains for studies dat i dont wish to start werking..
soon i am serving the government..
omfg..

i don want tym to pass too fast..
i still want to enjoy my life!!

pls god,
let tym pass slower..

NEW YEAR!!

2008-12-31T23:18:00.006+08:00

yay!!

i got to meet her yesterdae!!

after 1 bloody whole MONTH..

look how happy she is coz im der.. lols

so basically went to ps to watch YESman!!

its damn funny la..

but i still tink twilight is better..

after movie went over to eat at gelare..

*stomach grumbling

had seafood with tomato sauce pasta

our desserts.. SHIOK AH!!

at her house bus stop while shes waiting for my bus to arrive..

and a classic oh-so-retarded face of mine..

the retarded foto show my feelings for that dae and her returns..

so happy!!

-end-

alrite..

happy new year all..

new year new resolution?

mine is as always..

no resolution..

cant be bothered to make any resolution la..

niwaes ppl are enjoying themself partying away their last moment of 2008 while im at home at 2336 doing nothing in my room..

initial plan, to watch firewerks with lyna n mit liang jie(lj) to catch up with his life..

but lyna decided to back out coz her mum nag la diz la dat la...

standard..

so left with me n lj..

den he asked me yesterdae if still miting..

so i tell him lyna nt gg..

n guess wad he sae??

"think no need meet la coz it will be so boring.. its ok.. i can stay at home to drink alcohol.. lol"

u trying to say i am BORING??

thanks dude..

so todae plan-less i was tinking of gg jog early in the morn at 8..

n as usual..

this lazy brain of mind sae " go slp first la.. 10 more mins.." *click* press the snooze button on my fone

10 mins later : "still early la.. 10 more mins.." *click* press the snooze button on my fone

another 10 mins later: "aiyah slp la.. gt the chance to slp go jog for wad?? nw is the tym to repay back the lack of slp due to skool" *click*press the OFF alarm clock button

so basically todae didnt go jog..

instd woke up at 1130 and accompanied my sister to fetch my mum and dad from werk with her car.. but before that fetch her fren/ex-"boyfriend", koek cheng...lols

my sis, her ex-"boyfren"

so after fetching the parents hm went over to fetch another fren of my sis,Liah..

but before that while waitin for sumthing wich i cant recall i took diz..

in the moment of boredom..

den lepak at my hse n suppose to go watch firewerk wit her frns..

so tot can fetch my baybee frm marina..

den my sis change her mind instd they decided go club at double-O..

and of coz i don follow.. club eh??

tak main ah..

lols..

so enjoy people!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

may the year 2009 is a good luck year for me, us and everyone out there..
so now im watching firewerks at hm..

-enjoy-

dreadful

2008-12-29T21:23:00.003+08:00

todae is the end of the 2 weeks school holiday and starting of school..
initially my plan was to skip today's lesson..
instead i woke up 730am instead of 8..
so i decided to go school..
and the thought of getting back results just makes me even motivated to go school..
wen i reached school at 915, i was late as usual lols, i entered the klass halfway and the first bloody thing came out from jenny, my lecturer for computer vision and image processing, mouth was our class was the worst of all the 3 classes that consist of the most failures and the lowest marks comes from either of us.. lols..

that was damn demoralizing la.. wad a waste of my time to go for her lesson just to hear her demoralizing me.. next was she appointed me to do a bloody difficult question on the board for everybody to see my answer.
dono is she trying to help me or is she trying to show the klass my stupidity.. grrr...
fucking shit man!!

next was omar lesson.
waited the whole one hour hoping he will release our results..
but damn!!
he didnt

he only kol out those that failed badly to do a revision with him..
overall he is the best lecturer i ever had in terms of helping us with exams la..
but teaching wise personally i prefer jenny..

okok
den was 2 hrs practical lesson of albert..
first time for the whole sem i enjoyed his lesson..
and he gave us our results..
but i didnt bother la coz i noe i either jus pass or fail..
until............

Albert: muhammad azlan......... C..
ME: WHAT!!! oopss. sorry sorry..

i actually jumped up my chair la when he say i got C..
alhamdulilah..

alhamdulilah syukur nikmat
kepada tuhan yang memberi rahmat
*singing to the song from P.Ramlee

1 down 3 to go..
hope tomoro all results will be released..
i dont like to wait!!

Trips week

2008-12-28T14:38:00.021+08:00

Ok since today is sunday lets summarise what i did this week..

Mon : Went over to somerset to accompany my cousin settle her customer stuff. Met farhanna to peninsular and sim lim

Tues : Went Plaza Sing to accompany my cousin again to buy clothes for her bf sis. If not for the condo facility card i guess i wont bother.. jkjk.. lols.. for the sake of gym..

Wed: Went to Northoaks condo with my whole siblings n farhanna n lyna to use their gym n swim. then followed by dinner at seoul garden.

Thurs: HOHOHO MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
went to changi airport to send lisa off to korea..

Fri: slack at home

Sat: Pulau ubin with farhanna mahira lyna filzah

Sun: slack at home while waiting for mon(skool starts) sianzz

Photos on thurs at airport royal crowne plaza
nice lighting for christmas

lyna's butt and her friend husi

she insist on taking a photo of her

cool huh? wait till at the reception area.. fyi this is just the entrance pathway

the reception area.. cooler huh??

lols

Next fotos on ubin trip

in the bus towards changi jetty

while waiting for the bumboat

in the bumboat

WELCOME TO PULAU UBIN PEOPLE!!

Our first stop.. our bikes..

nice view

at chek jawa.. no bikes allowed so we parked our bikes..

guess which bikes belong to who

mine, mahira, lyna, fil, farhanna

theres like a display house at chek jawa.. so we stopped to take fotos..

outside the house theres a huge rock.. so we posing posing der..

and outside the house theres also this long bridge which stops at the centre of the sea..

1st shot => FAILED

2nd shot => FAILED!! too dark

3rd shot => cantik ah!!

at the end of the bridge

so after chek jawa we cycled all around the island..

nt all..

coz sum ppl wans to go home early..

tired la, dis la dat la..

well wadever..

so total we only cycled 3 hrs.. 3HRS PPL!!

and we paid 6 bucks for the bicycle for whole dae n 5 bucks for the thru n fro trip of bumboat for 3 hrs of pulau ubin trip..

at mainland.. our "tired" faces

so after that went back home taking 109 bus..

guess wad happen??

i LEFT my wallet in the damn bus la..

lucky i was able to retrieve it back..

if nt my ic, ezlink card, skool pass, posb n oub atm cards, 12 bucks cash, my mum's ezlink card n OUR fotos... GONE...

on the wae wen i realise my wallet was left behind,

lyna asked a question..

lyna: you can still be so cool and not panic eh..

me: do u noe such thing as wearing a mask/bertopeng?

well wad i learn is sumtyms we need to put on a facade to avoid any unhapiness or to maintain ur cool..

but sumting that i find out is dat putting on a facade is tiring n it may make ppl happy but it doesnt make u HAPPY..

So i wonder..

is it worth putting on a facade for certain peeps?

a confession

2008-12-27T23:18:00.005+08:00

a video that takes me 2 days to complete..

it was completed like last week but todae i was so free so i uploaded it

a video from the botom of my heart

mixed it up

2008-12-24T23:11:00.006+08:00

today was a mixed feeling day out..
and everyting happen in woodlands..
gym and swimming at northoaks condo.. credits of entry of the condo n usage of facility to my beloved cuz..
den eat at causeway point..

started out with a fruitful day..
went to gym!!
after like 1 mth of not gg thx to damn blody skool..
year 3 katekan..
yr 3 oso need give us sum life rite!!

followed by embarrassing yet fun day..
went swimming after dat of coz..
take note ppl..
first time showing off my sexy body to my frens la sey..
klau realli sexy ok la...

but juz wait!!
gg towards that goal and this time i am so gonna FOCUS..

well toking about focus on nice body..
went to eat seoul garden after swim..
contradicting y'all..
lols..
y'all or wad!!

niwae let the foto do the toking..

while waiting for the damn bloody long bus.. wait.. buses are long coz if not it wont be abe to contain alot of ppl..
kk i am being lame..
my small sis, smallest sis, big sis, me, n the kepo "aditional sibling"(lyna)
lols..
jkjk..

trying to imagine im running for my life..
as if..

kakak farhanna kiter pretending to be in the cycling race with neil armstrong

and of coz my oh so retarded face
preparing to change to swim

the swimming pool view from the gym

my oh so cute smallest sis
well look at the bro..
dats wer the cuteness cums frm..

grp pics!!

the three amigos
after swim towards causeway pt.

i tink the reason why we both can connect so well coz of our similarities in character..
RETARDEDNESS..
lols

us acting fierce

ladies..
while the guy become the cameraman.. wth!!

SEOUL GARDEN!!
the foods..

busy prasan tyra banks and nigel barker..

this foto look so wrong

i look like im gonna beat farhanna up..
lols

k lets be serious a bit..

after stuffed ourself till full, wanted to go home but lyna decided to drop by civic centre to buy purse which is 2 for 10 bucks.. she was like taking 1 hr der (ok dats a little exaggerating) onli 30 mins..

this is wad hapen we im tired, full and bored of lyna choosiness..
act retarded although no need to act..

and became crazy..
laughing non stop..
cant remembr wads the joke about

overall thumbs up to rate for today event..

Single but unavailable

2008-12-19T22:16:00.001+08:00

It's been quite a while since my status is single but unavailable..
in 10 days time it's gonna be back to ATTACHED..
attached to the one and only GLYNIS TAI YOU LING..
lols..

Celebrated dok's(farhana) 20th birthday today by slacking over at her hse and learn to play the guitar..

evening went to eat dinner at cozway point kfc dn slack again at woodlands ave 2 area opp blk 369.. when miss MJ asked this question that kinda makes me tink hard n ponder..

MJ: what if der's another guy that likes my taitai, will i fight it out with him or leave?

this question is really hard for me to ans and i really wonder y wen the answer is suposed to be the obvious..

it really takes me quite sometime to think of a true answer..

to me i don see a reason for me to fight it out wen at the first plc she shouldnt even bother thinking of accepting another guy wen she alr hav one..
but i gues to girls perception is "they want them to fight it off to prove to her hw the guy treasure her".. thats wad ms MJ n fahana said wen i said no point fighting it off..

bt seriously la.. tink about it ppl..

if whoever were to read this entry i would love ur opinion wether shud the guys fight it off?
pls indicate ur gender so that i can see the differet sexes point of view.